For the last six months, I have been working primarily out of Jubilee's satellite office in Anacostia on Good Hope Road. We are located in Ward 8, in the Southeast quadrant of DC's city. We're across the river, and that's when the numbers jump in terms of unemployment, low-income households, crime, under-funded schools, etc. While the manner in which I was asked to transfer was a bit abrupt (chalk it up to the M.O. of our non-profit), I have been thankful for the chance to be part of Jubilee's mission to some of the folks who feel the crunch the most in this city. I was expecting to be in SE for a short term, as I will begin grad school in the fall. Not so, according to my superiors. So again, after some recent processing after a rather abrupt change in expectation, I am feeling positive about my no-longer-temporary stay in SE.
part of the reason I love my job is because I get the distinct privilege of interacting with folks with whom I would never before have had the opportunity to meet and get to know. SE hosts some major transition houses where men and women stay after times of incarceration and/or times of recovery from addictions. working with both of these populations have been part of the impetus for me to return to school. our applicant pool continues to range - some have criminal charges while others do not; some are in recovery from addictions, others have never touched anything like that.
so i've had the privilege of meeting some pretty amazing people. the stories vary as much as the people, but I've been thinking for awhile that I need to start writing these down. i thought about this one particular example from this month. here's a young guy - we'll call him "Anthony." He's young (21), has a charge from when he was 18, and has a refreshing amount of self-reflection, common courtesy, and initiative. He had even just joined a local drum line held at a nearby high school. I told him about my brother who had always impressed me by playing the quads -- he said that's what he plays.
anyway, so Anthony was open to a variety of jobs, which is what many people say, but fewer actually demonstrate a complete flexibility. there was a job lead that came from a former Jubilee applicant who was working at this company - and they needed more people! and i knew for a fact that the owners/managers were ok with giving people second chances (in terms of accepting people who had criminal charges). so this job would have entailed phone work and direct customer service-type work. first step was a phone interview, so I call Anthony and told him about it. he called in, passed the phone screen and went for the in-person interview. unfortunately, because of the nature of Anthony's crime (non-violent, but involving attempted theft), they were unable to hire him.
here's where an applicant has a choice. me? if i were rejected from something after hauling my butt up to an interview for a job i had never previously thought about doing, i'd have been done for the day. Anthony? he left his one interview seemingly undaunted and visited another establishment i had told him about...this time food service. Anthony was already dressed up and looking nice (we require shirt & tie for guys), so in he went, impressed the manager, and was called back for a second interview the very next day! Anthony was hired within 48 hours of his initial rejection from the other place! the food place was even talking possible management opportunities for Anthony in the future! Good hope!
Now. Had this been yesterday, my post would have ended. Good Hope Road indeed. we take the good news and the bad, but overall, we're about cultivating that Good Hope within each person who uses our services. and i still believe that. but Anthony's story doesn't end at his hiring. i had forgotten to put Anthony into our system 2 weeks ago when he started (a rare neglect, but a pleasant surprise when i could increase my "hired" pile by one). I had just entered his data yesterday when i saw that I had missed a call from him. I remembered he had tried to call earlier in the week as well. called him up - we finally got in touch today....and he told me he had lost his job on Monday. piece of crap.
the events around it are unclear, but suffice it to say, the manager who had been so excited about him and his possible management potential had lost her job, and Anthony was out of good graces. it was a menu where having a Spanish-speaking background could have been helpful, and Anthony believes he was cut because he wasn't keeping up with some of the Spanish orders. *sigh*. Still Good Hope Rd. But feels less good right now.
I've been reading Tattoos on the Heart, a book by a Jesuit priest who has spent most of his ministry life working with gang members in L.A., along with the rest of the Jubilee staff. like many non-profits, we rely heavily on numbers and positive stories so that we can share them with donors and continue the ever-present push for raising funds. as i read this passage last night, i couldn't help but rest in the reminder that Christ cares less about results and more about relationships.
Twenty years of this work has taught me that God has greater comfort with inverting categories than I do. What is success and what is failure? What is good and what is bad? Setback or progress? Great stock these days, especially in nonprofits (and who can blame them), is placed in evidence-based outcomes. People, funders in particular, want to know if what you do "works." Are you, in the end, successful? Naturally, I find myself heartened by Mother Teresa's take: "We are not called to be successful, but faithful." This distinction is helpful for me as I barricade myself against the daily dread of setback. You need protection from the ebb and flow of three steps forward, five steps backward. You trip over disappointment and recalcitrance every day, and it all becomes a muddle. God intends it to be, I think. For once you choose to hang out with folks who carry more burden than they can bear, all bets seem to be off. Salivating for success keeps you from being faithful, keeps you from truly seeing whoever's sitting in front of you. Embracing a strategy and an approach you can believe in is sometimes the best you can do on any given day. If you surrender your need for results and outcomes, success becomes God's business. I find it hard enough to just be faithful.
this isn't about everyone just being one major success story after another. it's about injecting everyone we work with and beside with the notion and truth that they are significant, worthwhile, capable, fantastic people. it's about finding solidarity in the struggles, the frustration, the job hunt; and in celebrating the face-to-face interview, the one more possibility, the musical outlet, the sharp-looking résumé.
three steps forward, five steps back, three steps forward. good hope road towards steady income, towards recovery, towards stable housing, towards a degree.